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I’m a little pissed of today. Why? Let’s just say that someone accused me of being fat! Ha-ha! Crap right? Well, anyway – I am fat, chubby, bloated or whatever you may call a 200 lbs. person that neither involved with sumo wrestling or ultimate fighting championship (UFC). I don’t weigh that much, but for some people I look like a 200 lbs. gal. Honestly, never on my entire life I become slim or sexy for that matter. I weighed last time about 135 lbs. That was 62 kgs. I can be included on the hogs that my aunt used to sell.

So, I was pissed of. Well, few months ago, I dedicated myself to lose some weight and totally become thin. Have you tried to know your BMI or the Body Mass Index? This index is used to know if your weight jive with your height – to identify if you’re underweight or opposite of that.. ummmm… overweight! You may ask why I wanna loss weight – I wanna feel good about myself. I wanna wipe out that little insecurity I had because I’m not thin or something. And I did it. I lost about 20 pounds. I am now underweight!

The dieting process is easy – especially when you get the results. I felt motivated to go on. The very best thing was, when I was buying new clothes and I really can’t believe on what I saw in front of the mirror! Is that me? Is that my new body? I love that.

The hard part is – how to maintain. How on earth am I going to maintain starving myself, neglecting the comfort foods, buying my favorite chips and dip and constantly puking all my intakes through body work-out or worse, if you’re like me with irregular bowel movement, drinking tons of herbal tea? That’s horrible. NO ONE REALLY UNDERSTANDS THE STRUGGLE AND CHALLENGES OF BEING FAT AND DOESN’T WANT TO BE FAT.

Now, I’m feeling on my belly that fats are starting to get into me. Weighing scale is already screaming at me that I’m getting fat. Is being fat a sin? I dunno. We are victims of stereotyping. We are victims of anorexic Victoria Secret models and idiosyncratic human behavior of conceited maniac.

I hate those people calling me fat! So what? If people won’t be able to accept me if I gain a pound or two, I don’t hell care. Life goes on with me. I’ve been fat before – so, no need to goddamn tell me that I suck because I’m fat. I’m tired of those people telling me what to feel or do. I’m tired of pleasing people. If you’re not pleased with my body, that’s not my problem anymore. If to you, I eat too much, I paid these with my own money! I REALLY HATE BEING CALLED FAT!

So, to all fat people let’s gather together and take our tasteful revenge! Haha! I’m kidding! I’m pathetic, I know. I’m just frustrated. This is what I feel at this very moment. Maybe I should join the biggest loser, if that’s what you want then????

Sigh… now I have to starve myself again!

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